知らない場所の懐かしさ | The familiarity of a place I've never been

From JUURI's instagram feed.

From JUURI's instagram feed.

 日本語でブログを書きたくなりました。 可笑しな日本語でごめんなさい！

今、日本から帰ってきたばかりです。十日間後のunpackingと洗濯、ハンパじゃないですね。今は、日本／アメリカのmixtureの場所に居る気がします。いつかはとうとう現実に戻らなきゃいけないと思いますが、inspirationと日本で経験出来た癒しを忘れないように努力します。

やっぱり、日本での経験がないと、私は絵が描けなくなるんだと思います。このbreakの間、自分の絵で何を伝えたいのか、自分のためにも何が一番書きたいテーマが前より分かった気がします。「物」、「顔」よりも、「懐かしい空間」が大切だと感じ始めました。その「懐かしい空間」と言えば、幼い頃日本で住んでた時の気持ちですね。そして共にまだexperienceしてない場所「静かな暗い森」が恋しくなりました。なぜ行った事ない場所が幼い頃のmemoryと一緒に混ざってるのか、分かりません。絵を描き始めたら分かる物なんですかね。それとも、一生分からなくても、良い物なのかもしれません。

とにかく、絵を描きます。

皆さん、どうもありがとうございます。

従理

English version:

I just got back from Japan. Ten days' worth of unpacking and laundry is a sight to see! I currently feel like I'm living in a space between Japan and the US. I suppose I will have to return to reality someday, but I will work hard to preserve the inspiration and rejuvenation I got by being back in Japan.

I learned that I can't properly create art without having experiences in Japan. During this hiatus, I learned more about what I want to say with my art, and what I need to paint for myself. More than "objects" or "faces", I truly desire to present a "nostalgic feeling or mood." Maybe the glitters of remembrance I have from living in Japan when I was small. Also, I have a great longing to convey the feeling of being in a dark, quiet forest surrounded by plants. I'm not sure why I'm longing with such familiarity for a place I've never known, and why that longing is mixed so inexplicably with my childhood memories.

Perhaps I will find out if I paint. Or perhaps, I don't need to ever know.

Anyway, I will paint.

Thank you everyone.

+++ Appendment:

Don't worry, I'm not going to give up painting gorgeous girl faces anytime soon. But I'm going to now try to pay more attention to minimalist compositions, gradients, darker (or extremely light) backgrounds, environment, color de-saturation, monotone, neater rendering of plants, mood, feeling... I want to bridge the gap between what I want to paint and what I would display in my own minimalist modern dream home. 

JUURI

This is the type of Japanese forest which beckons my imagination!